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Thoughts~
I have been told my name is very pretty more times in the last day than i have in a good couple of years. It seems odd that all of a sudden it should get so much attention. In my EDCI class (which is ridiculously boring) the TA commented on how pretty my name sounded when she came around to take my photograph. The whole class was photographed so that the actual teacher could learn our names and faces. I heard her later pronouncing all of our names to the teacher who was chinese and when she got to my name she said "Boussole. Isn't it pretty?" Of course it was my real name, not Boussole, but they're both french, so...*shrugs* And then in my English class the teacher was calling role and she gets to my name. Of course, she can't pronounce my last name so she just leaves it off like everyone does, and i give her a small hand flick to signify my presence. Then she asks before moving to the next name, "How do you pronounce your last name?" So i tell her and she's all, "Ooh! I like the way that sounds! What is it?" My last name may sound nice in english but in Polish it's just funny, in my opinion. *gasp**shock* People now have two new clues to discovering my real name! ^-^
On another note, I met with Andy from my EDPS class the other day just to hang out and have lunch. We ended up chatting and wandering around campus for a while before he had to go to class. It's nice talking with him, but i'm worried he might want to see me for other reasons. I like Andy, just not in a romantic way. I'm sure if i sat and thought on the idea for a while i could convince myself that it would be possible for me to like him, but that really isn't the way i want my romances to go~ If that makes any sense ._. He talked a lot about how he was having a rough time with his girlfriend and was pretty much single by that point, or would definitely be so by evening. And he wants to get together again already, which i'm not adverse to, but i don't want to see him if it seems i'm giving false advertisement. But i don't want to say anything along those lines to him in case he really is just wanting to meet as friends. Gaa~ How do you know if someone's interested or just being friendly? How do i know if i'm sending false signals or leading guys on without realizing it? @_@ Why is life so complicated?
This is probably why i don't date. It's too much work and too confusing! I don't mean to be self centered but i just don't feel i'm ready for a relationship, as corny as that sounds. I have so little experience with things of that sort that i hardly know where to begin. My sole date consists of prom, if you don't count meeting Andy for lunch, which i'm telling my mind doesn't. *sigh* Ridiculously enough, the idea of living and dying a spinster doesn't bother me all that much. If it's acceptable for men to be bachelors for life, why not women? Why is it we're expected to marry and have children? Why can't we lead a single life like some men and not be talked about scandalously by our relatives? I'm afraid i don't have the answer's to any of those questions.
I have been told my name is very pretty more times in the last day than i have in a good couple of years. It seems odd that all of a sudden it should get so much attention. In my EDCI class (which is ridiculously boring) the TA commented on how pretty my name sounded when she came around to take my photograph. The whole class was photographed so that the actual teacher could learn our names and faces. I heard her later pronouncing all of our names to the teacher who was chinese and when she got to my name she said "Boussole. Isn't it pretty?" Of course it was my real name, not Boussole, but they're both french, so...*shrugs* And then in my English class the teacher was calling role and she gets to my name. Of course, she can't pronounce my last name so she just leaves it off like everyone does, and i give her a small hand flick to signify my presence. Then she asks before moving to the next name, "How do you pronounce your last name?" So i tell her and she's all, "Ooh! I like the way that sounds! What is it?" My last name may sound nice in english but in Polish it's just funny, in my opinion. *gasp**shock* People now have two new clues to discovering my real name! ^-^
On another note, I met with Andy from my EDPS class the other day just to hang out and have lunch. We ended up chatting and wandering around campus for a while before he had to go to class. It's nice talking with him, but i'm worried he might want to see me for other reasons. I like Andy, just not in a romantic way. I'm sure if i sat and thought on the idea for a while i could convince myself that it would be possible for me to like him, but that really isn't the way i want my romances to go~ If that makes any sense ._. He talked a lot about how he was having a rough time with his girlfriend and was pretty much single by that point, or would definitely be so by evening. And he wants to get together again already, which i'm not adverse to, but i don't want to see him if it seems i'm giving false advertisement. But i don't want to say anything along those lines to him in case he really is just wanting to meet as friends. Gaa~ How do you know if someone's interested or just being friendly? How do i know if i'm sending false signals or leading guys on without realizing it? @_@ Why is life so complicated?
This is probably why i don't date. It's too much work and too confusing! I don't mean to be self centered but i just don't feel i'm ready for a relationship, as corny as that sounds. I have so little experience with things of that sort that i hardly know where to begin. My sole date consists of prom, if you don't count meeting Andy for lunch, which i'm telling my mind doesn't. *sigh* Ridiculously enough, the idea of living and dying a spinster doesn't bother me all that much. If it's acceptable for men to be bachelors for life, why not women? Why is it we're expected to marry and have children? Why can't we lead a single life like some men and not be talked about scandalously by our relatives? I'm afraid i don't have the answer's to any of those questions.